Friend #52 - Chris
I was walking back from lunch with a friend sometime in the spring of this year. My friend was talking about being in love. “When was the last time you were in love?” they asked. I paused, thinking, trying to be honest with myself. “I don’t know. Maybe fifteen years ago? But that may have been more obligation than love. I’m not sure I’ve ever really been in love.” My friend stopped walking and stared at me, mouth gaping open. “I feel sorry for you.” There’s been a lot of times in my life that I’ve wondered if something is wrong with me. I think I can be charming. I think I can be well-liked. But when it comes down to having a deep, personal relationship with anyone, I have been an absolute failure. Mostly, I feel like the major relationships that have come into my life have cared about me for surface reasons and nothing more. It has left me empty. But the optimist in me never lets me give up. It is the reason I continued to stay on the onli